Finding My Passion... Again ;-)

So, do you remember the last time you got all excited about something and you couldn't stop thinking about it... I'm not talking about obsession or anything: just some good old-fashioned passion! I've been struggling for a bit. That's not to say that I'm vexed by the obvious Cancer fighting regiment that has become my new-found lifestyle. To be honest, I've been depressed. Ever since I found out about the Cancer, I've been in a bit of a floaty space of "So what you gonna do about it?" For the longest time, I actually thought that once I got done with the treatment I would be just fine and life would get back to normal and I could get on with living again. I'm sorry to say that it's not so simple... Funny, ain't it? We find comfort in the notion that life will get easier eventually and that sometimes stops us from actually doing something that'll jump-start the process. (Don't worry, this blog does have an upside... eventually ;-))

I've been working on a few creative projects... Namely books because, between you and me. I am in no condition to go out and take on the largely superficial world of the entertainment industry that is pop culture. I just don't have the stamina, yet. I think that the children's book that I've been working on is going to be a highly sought after tool to help children everywhere who are dealing with the ever ominous honorary title of 'Cancer patient.' So I got the idea.... the general premise for my book when I heard that they sedate or anesthetize kids who are receiving treatment. What is that about? Right, I know that it's not the most pleasant experience but I was able to work through it with imagination. Why can't kids do the same? Maybe no one has given them the chance-- or choice, for that matter!

So I am a collector... I collect details and sights and sounds and memories. Like many of you, I store them until they might some day be useful. D'you know what I'm realizing? No time like the present, boys and girls! I'm going to stop talking about this great idea I have as just an idea and make it a reality! Sheesh! So many people out there have so many great ideas about what they're going to do when they grow up (whatever stage of growing up is next.) I think that it's what you do with your idea that really counts for something. So I... I want to start something that's bigger than even I can fathom.

A few years back, I wrote this crazy kitchy family feature called 'Superficial' that was all about Superheroes in the making. Now I'm talking that premise one step further... starting from the ground up! Heck! Why can't we plant the superhero seed early in life! All you've gotta do is be brave and do something even though it might be scary and unpleasant. You will arise triumphant as long as you remember why you're doing it! For me, being diagnosed with Cancer made me feel very small indeed. There was this organism inside me that should even be there. This nasty little thing that kept growing and growing and it kills people or makes their hair fall out. Come on, I know that I am not alone in these associations! As people, we've got all these definitions of things... classifications... things we use to discern what's possible from what's unrealistic. Yeah, well try this one on: I am a superhero!

If we look at superheroes, their general class of organism have all had something traumatic or radioactive happen to them. Me too! Have you ever had a sunburn? Then this still applies to you dang nabbit! Please, keep reading... I won't be too much longer. You can be superhuman by being a super human. Defy the odds! Go on, exceed your expectations! Keep pushing the limits of who you're known to be until you reach that widely sought after space that's more than everything you've ever imagines. And when you reach that threshold, look me up... so we can have another conversation about the law of attraction and recognizing opportunities whenever they occur. Surround yourself with supportive, caring people. People who take you for all that you are and all that you are not and will love you even when you change. Love yourself. Worship your body. Feed your soul. Find that elusive passion again!

N' that's how I'm surviving... MDB